Saturday, June 27, 2009
the passing of a legend 1958-2009
i was in the car alone trying to get myself to one utama for transformer 2 after the working hour. my colleague who car pool with me everyday left early. the moment i was in the car, the radio played 'they don't care about us'. the radios have been playing michael jackson's hits non stop whole day and in the morning.
i sang together with michael in the song. driving the car along the highway, i started to realise that the king is dead and he is no longer with us anymore. don't get me wrong. i knew about his passing in the morning but despite the news and the hoo haa my faculty created, it didn't hit me at that time that a legend, an immortal can actually dies.
skinhead, deadhead, everybody gone bad
situation, aggravation, everybody allegation
in the suite, on the news, everybody dog food
bang bang, shock dead, everybodys gone bad.
half way singing this song, i realised that my eyes were burning, my vision was blurred by tears and subconsciously, i wiped the tears that was rolling down my cheek. i am going to miss him.
Sunday, June 07, 2009
this happened last friday
a conversation that i have had with a colleague of mine yesterday
a: hey eiffel when is your exhibition going to end?
e: ermm, which one arr?
a: the one with simon yam one. wahhh how many do you have currently?
*thinks for a moment*
e: i have four. one in ant gallery and that's the one with simon yam, one in wl fine art gallery, one in sabanci university. but this one has been taken off the main gallery but it's still showing in their smaller gallery and the last one is in kodak gallery in tokyo.
a: ermm... so when is the one with simon yam's ending then?
e: i don't know.
a: how come you don't know?
*laughs*
Sunday, May 24, 2009
theatre of cruelty part 2
panthera tigris
some kind of monkey
some kind of monkeythe initial idea was to visualise something that 'planet of the ape' so successfully visualised 20 years ago.
theatre of cruelty
Zoos claim to provide educational opportunities, but most visitors spend only a few minutes at each display, seeking entertainment rather than enlightenment. Over the course of five summers, a curator at the National Zoo followed more than 700 zoo visitors and found that “it didn’t matter what was on display … people [were] treating the exhibits like wallpaper.” He determined that “officials should stop kidding themselves about the tremendous educational value of showing an animal behind a glass wall."
the full write up can be read from the webpage of peta (people for the ethical treatment of animals) www.peta.org
Friday, May 08, 2009
chogokin bearbrick
'Medicom Toy has teamed up with Bandai to release the first 200% sized Be@rbrick made out of Chogokin, the metal which was used to make Bandai toys back in the day and was discontinued due to its high cost, but has made a resurgence in the toy collecting community. The 1000 pieces limited toy features screw holes along the back which is exactly how Bandai collectibles were made. Although these are already sold out in Japan, Medicom Toy account holders in other parts of world will be officially releasing them soon in very limited quantities.'
anyone thinking of this? for rm 299.80 it is not really cheap. but seeing that it is made in the same metal material bandai used to make their chogokin series of toy, and limited to only 1000 worldwide, i am tempted to get one.
aarrghhhh!
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
battery died?
and the car battery died today. well, whether or not it was the cause of the car for refusing to start is another thing altogether. i am suspecting it's the battery. but the connector, or whatever you call those thing that connect the battery to whatever it's supposed to connect to is corroded.
i was stuck in the petrol station. the car refused to start after i had switched it off to refill the petrol. the assistant was good to help but his help lasted only for 15 minutes. after he had realised that the problem of my car was beyond his knowledge, he made an excuse of needing to attend to the customers and asked me to wait for the workshop, which is just next door to open. it was 8.30 in the morning and the workshop will only be opened at 9. great!
to cut the long story short, the foreman came and checked and scolded me for not checking the battery water level. my battery was basically empty. asked me to go get 2 bottles of battery water where he only used one and jump start the car. drove to the perodua service centre and wanted the cable changed and they ran out of stock of that. i noticed that they could start my car. well, out of 5 times, 3 times can be started and 2 times can't.
and since i am running out of time to attend to my last lecture of the semester, i hesitated in changing the battery (thinking that since the battery is full with battery water now and i might still be able to start the car for another day or 2) i have decided to drive all the way to cyberjaya without changing the battery.
so now here i am, gamble on the fact that i might not be able to start my car again, in cyberjaya!
let's pray for me!
i was stuck in the petrol station. the car refused to start after i had switched it off to refill the petrol. the assistant was good to help but his help lasted only for 15 minutes. after he had realised that the problem of my car was beyond his knowledge, he made an excuse of needing to attend to the customers and asked me to wait for the workshop, which is just next door to open. it was 8.30 in the morning and the workshop will only be opened at 9. great!
to cut the long story short, the foreman came and checked and scolded me for not checking the battery water level. my battery was basically empty. asked me to go get 2 bottles of battery water where he only used one and jump start the car. drove to the perodua service centre and wanted the cable changed and they ran out of stock of that. i noticed that they could start my car. well, out of 5 times, 3 times can be started and 2 times can't.
and since i am running out of time to attend to my last lecture of the semester, i hesitated in changing the battery (thinking that since the battery is full with battery water now and i might still be able to start the car for another day or 2) i have decided to drive all the way to cyberjaya without changing the battery.
so now here i am, gamble on the fact that i might not be able to start my car again, in cyberjaya!
let's pray for me!
Monday, April 27, 2009
ermm?
i haven't been blogging. this is because there is nothing much to be blogged about for the past 3 weeks. well, nothing positive to blog about.
my application for the artist in residence to sapporo was rejected, again! they chose the other artist, again. i guess i just do not have luck with these residencies nonsense. and what happened to the petronas's application. i didn't hear any news from them. so i take it that my application is being over seen by them. not that it really matters to me. i mean these residencies nonsense, they are like a bonus in life. but i thought it might be nice to be able to travel to another place altogether and get works done without having to worry about other things.
a client decided to stop the project that i was trying so hard to 'please'. you notice the word 'please'. they wanted everything that their retarded mind processes and i do everything and anything possible that's within my knowledge to please them. and half way down the road, they stop the project. without any rejection fees or compensation fees. what the fuck? spending money in scanning my slides is one thing but spending time and effort in thinking and taking photographs (though they were taken using my digital cameras, hence, no cost involve) is another thing altogether. how do we calculate how much those things cost? costless? just a simple sorry?
working with advertising people leave a bad taste in my mouth. heck, will probably stop working with advertising people. all this while, i thought it's only the advertising people from my work place are dumb. apparently this dumbness sickness extend to the agencies in malaysia. i am not so sure whether it applies throughout the world or not. let's not generalized everyone here first shall we.
but, a short one day trip down to the historical city of malaysia brighten things back, a lot. really enjoyed myself walking around old buildings and not having a thing to worry about. let's hope i have more of these days in order to bring my sanity back to order.
my application for the artist in residence to sapporo was rejected, again! they chose the other artist, again. i guess i just do not have luck with these residencies nonsense. and what happened to the petronas's application. i didn't hear any news from them. so i take it that my application is being over seen by them. not that it really matters to me. i mean these residencies nonsense, they are like a bonus in life. but i thought it might be nice to be able to travel to another place altogether and get works done without having to worry about other things.
a client decided to stop the project that i was trying so hard to 'please'. you notice the word 'please'. they wanted everything that their retarded mind processes and i do everything and anything possible that's within my knowledge to please them. and half way down the road, they stop the project. without any rejection fees or compensation fees. what the fuck? spending money in scanning my slides is one thing but spending time and effort in thinking and taking photographs (though they were taken using my digital cameras, hence, no cost involve) is another thing altogether. how do we calculate how much those things cost? costless? just a simple sorry?
working with advertising people leave a bad taste in my mouth. heck, will probably stop working with advertising people. all this while, i thought it's only the advertising people from my work place are dumb. apparently this dumbness sickness extend to the agencies in malaysia. i am not so sure whether it applies throughout the world or not. let's not generalized everyone here first shall we.
but, a short one day trip down to the historical city of malaysia brighten things back, a lot. really enjoyed myself walking around old buildings and not having a thing to worry about. let's hope i have more of these days in order to bring my sanity back to order.
Friday, April 03, 2009
mortality
someone told me last week that when i reach 40 year old, i will realise that i am not immortal after all. well, thing is, do i really think that i was immortal to begin with? maybe not to the extend of immortal but i sure think that death is far away from me. things like cancerous disease, fatal accidents, heart attacks and like wise will not happen to me. well, will not happen to me yet. i think most of the people out there have the same thought as me. we are young, and death is something that will happen to other people, not us.
but i do indeed thought of death when my mum was visiting one of her friends more than 10 years ago. she had cancer (of what sort i couldn't remember) and it was at the final stage. she looked frail and she was lying in the hospital bed looking as white as the bed sheet itself. i was with my mum for a while listening to their conversation and saying hi to her and stuffs. then when she started to 'get serious' and said something that i can still remember it until today, i walked out from the room and sat at the corridor of the hospital alone, thinking what if i was the one who was lying down in the bed and i had just said that very sentence that she had just said.
'i am going off anytime now and i know...'
that's the sentence that she had said and that's the final word that i had heard from her.
outside at the corridor resting, i thought of what will happen if i was about to die anytime and i was lying in the bed. i imagine myself looking at the ceiling, and imagine myself that i probably won't wake up the next time i 'sleep'. it was depressing. it makes me realise, for a moment, that i do indeed will die one day. and how will i die? and what are the things, mainly unfinished business that i have to complete before i die.
where will we go after our death? will it be painful? will there be really a light at the end of the tunnel like what some people claimed it to be? will i be reincarnated and come back as another life form in this world, or other world in other planet?
the moment one of my colleague told me that my ex-lecturer was admitted to the hospital for colon cancer, i felt sorry for him. he is a good lecturer to me and he is a good lecturer to a lot of other students. life can be cruel and unfair sometimes. i don't think he deserves this kind of treatment in life. what make everything worse is the fact that the cancer is at the 4th stage. and for colon cancer, 4th means the final.
what does that mean? i mean, are you telling me that my ex-lecturer is going to die? can't the doctors remove the colon and stuffs? why does he need to die? this is something that is totally unfair to him. there are more people out there who deserve to die more than him but god (as he is a christian himself) choose him. why? is there an explaining for this?
why why why why why?
